this living's killing me.

I wish life was like a piece of paper,
if you write something, and screw up..
you just srunch it up, throw it out, and start over.

Eminem - Beautiful

And I know some shits so hard to swallow,
but I just can't sit back and wallow
In my own sorrow, but I know one fact, I'll be one tough act to follow
One tough act to follow, I'll be one tough act to follow

goes to show, we'll never change.

These days have never been colder.

Every cold day we're getting older.

It all comes down to the sunrise, on the eastside.

So this is my life.

This is my life now.

This is my time, I’ll take what’s mine.

I can’t stop them, but I can try.

This is my life, it’s only mine.

We fall in love, and we fall apart.

control me.
I'm easy to control.
keep my leash short.
because you know I won't do anything.
I can't do anything about it.
my words are vain.
too vain to say.
so they'll never be heard.
trapped on the tip of my tounge.
my lips are a door.
not willing to open.
not willing to let them go.
I know what they can do,
these words.
and the outcome is terrifying.
terrifying and unfair.
the leash around my neck will keep me in your reach.
but don't tug it too hard.
my neck will break before it bends.
I'll break before I bend.

This blog is useless, I'm talking to myself.

Are you getting sick yet?
sick and tired yet?
of how you're living.
how you're acting.
the way you feel.
are you sick of it?
I am.
I'm fucking sick of this.
I'm sick.
I wish you were still the good kid you told yourself,
you'd always be.
That good kid.
I wish I could be.

You'll always be remembered, I swear.

Goodbye Levi and Paige.
You we two, GREAT people.
We miss you.
We all miss you.
Our hearts full of pain.
We miss you.