quit stalling, make a name for yourself.

you want to see me.
see the real me.
here I am.
bare of disguise.
this is me.
accept it.
appect me.
I won't change for you.
I can't, change.
not for you.

he gave me a word of advice.

"stop lying stop trying, I know you gave up on your life a long time ago. "

I won't give up until it's over.

nobody can stop me, nobody can make me stand still.
nobody can stop me, nobody can make me stand still.
nobody can stop me, nobody can make me stand still.

everyone who runs towards him, makes it.

nobody can me me stand still.

innocent people will suffer for your stubborness and pride.

one of us is problemed.
fucked up.
messed up.
she wants it to be me.
so doctor,
put me on some useless perscription drug
just to make her happy.

perfect's easy.

crack a smile sunshine,
you're alright.
you don't want your secret to get out,
do you?
no.
then crack that damn smile.
you don't hide things too well.
they'll figure you out.
someday, they'll see right through you.
they're going to have you all figured out.
then, you'll wish you had smiled a bit more.

no one reads these blogs anyways..

the words cant come out,
they never come out right.
the things I want to say,
the things I need to tell you,
I can't let you know.
you can't know.
I need you to know.
but you cant.

would you even understand,
if I began to even try to tell you?
would you understand?
would you listen?
would you hear what I am trying to say?
would you judge me?
or would you understand why?
can you even begin to understand why?
why this is happening.
why is this happening?
I don't even know,
I can't even understand.
so how could you?

I need so desperately to tell you.
I need so desperately for you to understand.
but you cant.
you cant.