innocent people will suffer for your stubborness and pride.

one of us is problemed.
fucked up.
messed up.
she wants it to be me.
so doctor,
put me on some useless perscription drug
just to make her happy.

perfect's easy.

crack a smile sunshine,
you're alright.
you don't want your secret to get out,
do you?
no.
then crack that damn smile.
you don't hide things too well.
they'll figure you out.
someday, they'll see right through you.
they're going to have you all figured out.
then, you'll wish you had smiled a bit more.

no one reads these blogs anyways..

the words cant come out,
they never come out right.
the things I want to say,
the things I need to tell you,
I can't let you know.
you can't know.
I need you to know.
but you cant.

would you even understand,
if I began to even try to tell you?
would you understand?
would you listen?
would you hear what I am trying to say?
would you judge me?
or would you understand why?
can you even begin to understand why?
why this is happening.
why is this happening?
I don't even know,
I can't even understand.
so how could you?

I need so desperately to tell you.
I need so desperately for you to understand.
but you cant.
you cant.

october.

dig me a deep grave,
to the center of the earth.
throw me in and let everyone forget.
mark my grave "unknown"
and let everyone forget.

Joe Anderson

Hey Jude
Don't make it bad
Take a sad song
And make it better
Remember To let her into your heart
then you can start to make it better.

Hey jude
don't be afraid
you are made to go out and get her
the minute you let her under your skin
you begin to make it better

Anytime you feel the pain
Hey Jude, refrain
Don't carry the world upon your shoulder
well you know that its a fool
who plays it cool
by making things worse
a little colder
na na
na
na na
na
na na
na

Hey Jude
don't let me down
you have found her
now go and get her
let it out and let it in
remember to let her into your heart
and you can start to make it better
better
better
better
better
better
na
na na na na na
na na na
Hey Jude
na
na na na na na
na na na
Hey Jude
na
na na na na na
na na na
Hey Jude
na
na na na na na
na na na
Hey Jude
na
na na na na na
na na na
Hey Jude
na
na na na na na
na na na
Hey Jude.

you can make it.

"Did you know that when a bone breaks it heals to be stonger than it was in the first place. But it hurts to break bones, and wearing a cast is frustrating. It takes a lot of tender care for a break to fully heal, and it's not easy."

save me.

God,
If you're up there,
watching over me..
I'm lost and I'm broken.
Take the pain away.
Show me love,
only in your arms.
Take my life.
I'll scream it to the world,
I am YOURS.